hello(:
after reading blogs it made me think of how much i have change. and nope you guys did not blog anything that hurt me. hmmmm like i was a very shy girl and always copy what my second sister will do and i was willing to do for them their chores at times and i had a heart for the poor and all. but now i feel that i am spolied, not saying that i am the queen but that i feel that i have to change.
i not wanna be winey for small issue.
i dont wanna throw my temper/tears once someone hurts me.
i wanna learn to control my emotions.
i wan people to love me for who i am not who i am trying to be.
i dont wan people to denpen on me to give them happines
i wan to be there for people wen i am the last person in their mind.
i wann do alot of things but i need help to change.
i am not saying that changing will be easy.
i dont wan to dwell in my past and sob about it, i want to look into my future and plan my life and live for god only.
i have friends that i dont understand them. they will be ther oonce you need them like wen you give them a call and all. wen a new party comes into their life they will forgot things ard them. which really piss me off. i mean you think about it. if you are the one making so much of effort in the friendship and the other party does not to try, then what is the point. so i guess i should live a life which i wan which i always dream about from the age of 6 or 7. the time me and my second sister use to play teacher and student in our study room which all 3 of our table will be ther and the arragement will be my elder sis then second sis and me. it will be so funn then my cousi will come by and half of her life will be in our house. me and my cousi will fight and play again. she is younger than me but she was the best. the love from her was greater.
okayy, i am going to be the person who love others. the old me.
there is always time to change, it is neva to late!!!!
